Today’s blog post is going to be cracking down on the BS I keep believing and posting about on social media. As you all know, I love my fitness and recently I’ve been posting a lot more about it on my Instagram. (I’ve linked my profile to the word so please feel free to give me a cheeky follow!) Lately I’ve been finding it hard to keep putting up appearances. It’s easier said than done to not believe everything you see on social media, especially when you are looking up to those in the fitness industry.
I’ve found myself training better than ever in many cases but yet I’ve had o improvement and if anything I’m gaining weight. NOW, let me make this clear… How many people have just read that and thought ‘she’s getting fat because she trains weights’? THIS IS NOT TRUE PEOPLE!!!! I’ve gained weight because of my lack in nutrition, I’m not treating my body like I should be. Yet annoyingly to myself, it looks like I’m doing pretty good on Instagram.
The truth is, I suck at this fitness malarkey. This is the first time in my life I’ve stayed at the same gym for longer than a couple of months. So on that note, yes I’m doing well but realistically I’ve made no progress in the last six months. I’d gotten to the point that my weight became stationary and although I was toning in places, I was still carrying too much fat. Since January I’ve had a lot of stress and this has been the perfect excuse for me to back track without even realising.
My diet is pretty rubbish and completely inconsistent. Some days I am the best at keeping my calorie intake low but keeping my hunger at bay by the food choices I make. Other days I’m out for breakfast, out for coffee and cake in the afternoon, then having a big meal for dinner and then snacking on chocolate at 9pm. THIS IS NOT OKAY GUYS! (Sorry for the over use of caps, I feel its necessary for me to emphasise how I’m not happy with this.) Yes, we can have treats. Yes, we can go out for coffee and cake. Yes, if you really want to you can have a cheat meal. Doing this on a weekly basis, sorry but no.
Is it my mindset? Nope, I don’t want to be fat or go back against everything I’ve worked so hard for. To be honest, I have no reason for my poor nutritional behaviour. I have so many friends who are all into the same things as me when it comes to fitness and they all strive to be in the same place I do. Yet they are winning because they are happy to diet and keep their nutrition clean. For some reason, I find this crazy hard. When I first started this back in May 2015, I was so strict on myself. Protein shake for breakfast, no chocolate, no takeaways, nothing remotely unhealthy. Even if I was in a situation where I had no choice but to eat out, I’d order the most boring, bland meal. As I started to see results I managed to allow myself to have treats and enjoy life a little more. When that all stopped, I honestly couldn’t tell you.
The truth is, I find this seriously hard and no matter how many times I ask people to help me, I just can’t stick to it. Recently I’ve been trying very hard to embrace what I have and I’ve been posting a little more on Instagram about what I really look like. It really only hit me last Friday how bad it had gotten when I asked my friend to film me whilst doing walking lunges. Isn’t it funny how you don’t see it until something as simple as that happens. Sad thing is, although I vowed I needed to do something about it, I still got drunk last Saturday night and stayed out till 3am. Ate Easter eggs on Sunday, went out for pub food on Tuesday and then ended up having a McDonald’s last night.
I have to face the consequences, those being you want to eat s**t then you’re going to look like s**t! End of.
Today I made better decisions and to be honest, seeing myself make these mistakes is stressing me out more and is probably not helping the situation one bit. I went back to my personal trainer today and took things back a few steps and began training like I did the first time we ever trained together. Circuit training is now back in my life and no matter how much I say cardio is a must after any weight session, finding the motivation to do one when you’re shattered is literally in possible. So I have a new plan of action, which hopefully I can stick to. The training aspect of things isn’t the issue, keeping my diet on track is the hardest part. I have a goal to lose a stone in time for my cousins 30th birthday party on the 10th of June, so I’m giving myself seven weeks and two days exactly to do it!
So to go back to the title, my confession today is that I’m not all that great when it comes to diet/nutrition/fitness. No matter how much I like to believe I am, but on the other hand everyone has to start from somewhere and find their boundaries.